By: Meg Rowe.
I often find myself thinking, “Who is Megan Rowe? What do I want to be remembered for and defined by?”
Well, here is a little bit about me. I am a very passionate person. I love medicine and everything about it, in fact I aspire to be a surgeon one day. I have an amazing work ethic and I am determined in everything that I do. I am resilient, and I am positive about everything in my life. I am compassionate, outgoing, and authentic. I am a 4.0 GPA student at the University of Waterloo. I was a competitive dancer and am now a fitness and movement enthusiast. I am the Co-President of the University of Waterloo Pre-Med Club. I am associated with various organizations on and off campus. I am an avid public speaker and an advocate for mental health and wellness. I am a daughter, sister, friend, leader, and peer. And I am Bipolar.
This means that I have an illness characterized by extreme highs and lows; depressive and manic states. I am either on top of the world, or I don’t want to leave my bed. Sometimes however, I find myself in a state in-between, this is a grey area and is sometimes the darkest of them all. When I try to explain how this feels to people, I often compare it to running a marathon with one foot in a high-heel and the other in a slipper. Sometimes I am running this marathon daily for a month, two months, even three. Some days I am exhausted, and I have certainly felt defeated more times than I can count. I have been hospitalized, I have lost relationships, and I have done more reckless things than I would like to admit. When I have been reckless, I have emotionally harmed others and have caused damage that is unimaginable. I have had people whom I love, simply walk out of my life the moment that they find out my diagnosis.
All these things have given me pain that I can not even begin to put into words. Yet, here I am today, living and thriving and completely aware of my actions. Although I will most likely be on medication for the remainder of my life, I am finally at peace with myself. I am learning forgiveness everyday, toward myself and toward those who have shown stigma towards me.
For the first time in years I can actually say that I love myself, and that I am so very proud of everything that I have accomplished. I am so many amazing things, and yes one of those amazing qualities is Bipolar.
- Please know that you are never alone and that so many of us share the same story. If you ever need someone to talk to or have any questions, please contact me. My info is below!
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